Sometimes I am negative and depressed. But I am always working on it. I have been looking into "My Big Toe" the theory of everything. Using Quantum physics. By Thomas Campbell.
I am understanding that very possibly I chose my parents and I chose my false religion as a learning experience as something to rise above.
So when I find myself negative because of my JW experience, I reflect on this information and start to make sense of my life and become a player.